I Will Not Accept Defeat

Once God's word starts getting out and faith spreads, it's crazy what the devil will do to try to bring you down, and it's even worse once you realize that you were about to accept defeat from things so trivial.  Yesterday I succumbed to my own "human-ness" not allowing myself to embrace all the blessings God has given me, and I am one very blessed woman!

Yesterday I could feel those evil grips trying to sway my mind, and reach my heart. Thankfully God is bigger than my human-ness and the devil's cunning ways.  Everything seemed to be going wrong, I wanted to give up, stop trying. Here we are in a house that is over 100 years old, my husband works his tail off, and things are just falling apart and we can never seem to get ahead! The furnace keeps quitting, the door handle on our bedroom door was defeated by a three year old, and our toilet was clogged (to the point that we had to take it off entirely) by a pencil, my paint job that I worked so hard on last year is peeling, the dog keeps chewing on EVERYTHING we own, (including our dining room table), and to top things off I got asked if I was "having another baby, or if that was just left over" I was ready to quit trying yesterday. Although then I thought about it, (and my wonderful husband brought me back to my senses).

God didn't give up on me, I do not have the right to give up on all the blessings he has given me, and if I didn't give up after that "dreadful day" why would I let the devil bring me down now with things that are, once again, so trivial. To tell you the truth I'm not even sure how I would "quit trying" what does that even mean? Stay in bed all day...not likely with two little boys, stop cleaning the house? We wouldn't be able to walk through it!  Quit writing my blog?  That's the only way I am able to vent!  So I guess I really didn't have a choice to "quit trying" I was just wanting to be a punk I guess. This morning I was reading in my Bible, about how Peter started walking on the water towards Jesus, but doubt set in and he started sinking, at that time Jesus reached out to him and pulled him from the water, asking him why he had so little faith.  That was me yesterday, did I have so little faith that I was actually feeling defeated??? Thank you Lord for reaching out to me, and for pulling me out of the water. 
Yesterday, I was NOT defeated, just as I wasn't defeated on that dreadful day, the Lord has me in his arms, I am his!  I will not accept defeat!

Matthew 14:25-33
²⁵ Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. ²⁶ When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.²⁷ But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.” ²⁸ “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.” ²⁹ “Come,” he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. ³⁰ But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!” ³¹ Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?” ³² And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. ³³ Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”